Anger, Healthy?

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Lately some things have been coming up for me, I finally decided to move on to the Heart Chakra as my focus for the month, and almost immediately I experienced some issues, several issues actually. Last weekend I had some news weighing very heavily on my heart and making my stomach do back flips. It was one of those, do I tell this person, who is like a sister to me, this horrible info that I have for her, or do I keep it to myself? I knew the answer to this, and neither outcome was going to be good for any party involved. To put it plainly, it blew up, and very far out of proportion. I had a few reactions to this, 1.) I had to hold space for her and allow her expression of justified anger, 2.) I felt had to keep the peace, 3.) I had to be the voice of reason, and 4.) I ended up emotionally confused...

When did I start placing my own feelings on the back burner? Or even my own self back there?

Ever since that night I have had a bout of Acid Reflux. I know it is not a dietary thing this time around because just a week prior I had done a impromptu cleanse and was feeling on top of the world. Now, my stomach is still in knots, my throat most certainly has something in it, and I have been waking up from a non-stop flow of dreams choking every night.

Below is an excerpt from a article I find myself referring to when I am having a Reflux issue, Dherbs.com.


The Metaphysical Causes of Acid Reflux

On a metaphysical level, acid reflux (heartburn) conveys the message that you have a burning desire to express something in your life, perhaps about a person or situation. It may be deep in your heart but because you don't know how to express it or perhaps refuse to express it, it burns you, hence "heartburn."


It may also denote anger in your heart. Anger has red energy and red is the color of fire or inflammation, so when there's anger, there's fire, and when there is fire, something is burning. But because this anger is in you, the fire is in you and thus it is something in you or inside of you that is burning. This is why I say that acidic content can literally burn a hole through your intestinal tissue. This is what peptic ulcer is. Your GI tissues have been burned.


According to fellow metaphysician and healer Lise Bourbeau, acid reflux denotes that you have a burning desire for something or someone that you will not allow yourself because you are finding the situation "difficult to stomach", but, rather than dealing with it, internalize your anger."


Healing is wholistic so we must also heal on the mental, EMOTIONAL, and spiritual levels as well. We must cleanse all negativity from our body. We must learn to express our hurts and pains as well. We must forgive, which is very therapeutic! The heart houses love so our hearts must become filled with love. Healing hurts and pains of the heart can be very challenging for many and many may not know how to emotionally cleanse and heal the heart, and if that is the case, I highly recommend you read Dherbs.com "The Love Manual" e-book which shows you how to work on and heal your heart via the 4th or Heart Chakra.

Read more: http://www.dherbs.com/articles/acid-reflux-heartburn-374.html#ixzz1c6X4pY1i



That first sentence says it all, "you have a burning desire to express something..." this is true, there is no maybe about. I am a person who needs to do that consistently, and for many years I have just shut down and allowed these feelings to simmer, brew and now boil over to the point where I now have physical manifestations of this self imposed limitation. In dealing with the Sacral chakra some of this came up for me, and moving further up into the Solar Plexus and Heart Chakras I see the imbalances here as well. I also recognized a mirror, I find it challenging to digest other peoples "dramatics" or "outbursts" and I truly believe this is because I have sat on top of my own for so long. I told my self that if I could remain calm through it all, you should be able to as well....tisk, tisk, that is not a very fair judgement (none are), but it is how I feel when I look at certain people who in my mind went a bit overboard. This mirror has shown up in many people over the course of my life. Conversly I have to say I admire their expression of such intense feelings, and can only hope that in the future people like this take those that are around them into consideration.

I look forward to moving on to the Throat Chakra, this is where I need to work on expressing these feelings, and doing so without harming others. For now I will continue with the Heart Chakra for one more week or so.

Take Care All.

Reiki Emergency

I love when Reiki shows up to give some much needed guidance, and not just for myself, but for others. When becoming a Reiki practitioner at any level, you are in many ways making a commitment to the people around you, and there is such a responsibility in that. I was called tonight by someone who needed some Reiki to assist them with the tragic loss of a close family member. This is the first "emergency" call I had received, and I knew I had a responsibility to show up whole, balanced, and ready to serve. In an instant I knew what it meant to be a responsible Reiki Practitioner, I knew the benefit of the Reiki exercises and meditations from my class. These exercises prepared me to become a clearer channel, so that when these emergency calls come up, I can now align quickly and be ready for those who need me.


Despite the personally rough few days I had had before today, as soon as I set my intention to be of service and channel for someone who needed me, that alignment came, and along with it, overwhelming gratitude. I was immediately able to hold space for this sweet person who called on me, and there was reciprocation in her gratitude for me showing up as well as me feeling honored for being called by such an incredible person. The movement of Reiki big and far reaching, it goes into those spaces we just do not expect and transforms them in such synchronistic ways.


I will end this by thanking Our Heavenly Spirit, and Our Reiki Masters,
with Warm & Loving Gratitude,
Thank You.

Chakra Focus 3 of 7: Solar Plexus

Color: Yellow
Element: Fire
Developmental Age: 12-18 years old
Spiritual Strength: Will, Identity, Commitment
Developmental Crisis: Identity versus Confusion


The above mentioned correspondences come from Susan J. Wright's book, The Chakras in Shamanic Practice; Eight Stages of Healing and Transformation. I have been delayed in creating a post for this chakra focus, not for lack of attempting, but for an abundance of confusion! This chakra covers such a wide ranging area of characteristics, as well as organs in the body. This chakra is usually generalized as the "stomach chakra", however upon careful inspection it actually covers, the liver, gallbladder, spleen, stomach, pancreas, diaphragm, kidneys, and adrenals. Wow! For each one of these organs, there is an emotional parallel or corresponding set of emotional principles. For each of these organs/emotions there is also a dualism, yin and yang, or contradicting element. I will not go into to each as I have experienced them, but I will place a chart I have created based on Donna Eden's book Energy Medicine, that will better illustrate my point.


With so much going on in this Chakra, hopefully you can now understand why this particular chakra focus has been such a daunting task to complete. Some personal issues that have jumped out for me surrounding control, being suspicious verus trusting, and truly breathing deep from the diaphragm. I can recall not so long ago being terrified of breathing too deeply and not understanding exactly where or when that fear had developed. Knowing now that the diaphragm can also be associated with the processing of greif or loss, it makes sense to me. There are certainly some events from my past that involve me not appropriately "grieving" over a loss. Grieving does not always mean literal death, but can certainly mean a loss of love or closely held beliefs that are no longer true and can quite literally take your breath away. We do not often take the time to process our feelings, in the last few years I feel time has been moving very quickly and I have been moving just as fast, neglecting to take time to sit and check-in with myself after emotionally traumatic events. I am beginning to believe that if I cry from a personal-emotional hurt, a flood gate will open and may never close. I was once a very emotional sensitive person and everything made me cry, (I'm also a Cancer, the zodiac's biggest cry-baby), somewhere along the lines I was simply all cried out and a very large, thick wall went up and tears were not allowed. Self-protective anger resonates with me in this case, I needed to protect myself from emotional hurts, and while doing so, I closed myself from a lot of people.

I cannot reiterate enough on how encompassing this chakra is. It explains so much on so many, many levels of my character to date. I can see how it has developed from the Root Chakra up, and from the Solar Plexus up to my crown. This "Power" chakra deserves it's name, it is quite powerful, and one I did not intentionally neglect, but assumed was "powerfully" charged because I thought I had a healthy sense of self. Our ego lies here, and so does our confusions, so it is no wonder so many of us walk this earth with varying degrees of a false sense of self.


This is a sad revelation, but one I needed to face, and this is one reason for my doing these chakra focuses, I needed to look deeper at these aspects of self. It is my hope that my own personal exploration and sharing will inspire you to look inside yourself as well.

I can now finally move on to the Heart Chakra, it is my intention to rekindle the more compassionate, loving, and vulnerable side of myself.

Peace & Blessings to you all.

Ummm....Solar Plexus...?

I'm not really sure where September went, or August for the matter, but here we are in October already! I have several blog posts planned/half written, namely my latest Chakra Focus, The Solar Plexus Chakra. I am contemplating if I want to write that post in two parts. It is such a wide-ranging chakra, that covers as many organs as it does issues... Honestly, I am still reflecting on this, not to mention recognizing my apprehension of diving head first into this chakra, and moving on to the next one, the Heart, that sweet space that bridges what I like to think of as, Heaven & Earth in the body. I attempted to talk myself into believing that I was looking for issues that weren't there, in my Solar Plexus, so that is why I haven't written anything yet...but that would be a lie. There are certainly some power struggles happening within me, mostly "Me" (ego-self) having a power struggle with "Me" (authentic-self), intuition vs. judgement vs. opinions. No one can beat us up quite like we can beat up ourselves....and my stomach is doing flips as I type this, so yes, there are certainly somethings that need to be explored.


So here is my promise, to myself and to my readers, sometime this month, I will post a blog on the Solar Plexus Chakra.


Until next time,
Have a great day, and be blessed.