Sacred/Sacral...No Coincidence
Last month I began my focus with the Sacral Chakra. I must admit I spent a great deal of time enjoying the more fun aspects of this energy center, and not facing the more unpleasant ones. What's not to love about this chakra? The Sacral Chakra is associated with our creativity, sex, and relationships in our universe. I did some painting, played with wild nail polish colors, and really was overcome with a sense of personal freedom. I remembered that exciting part of adolescence, when I would just wake up and go to a museum, or discover some great musical artist, or just get lost in a great book. Everyday felt like summer.
The Sacral Chakra is is located just below the navel, and on a physical level governs sexual organs in both males and females. This chakra's color is representation is a warm orange. This chakra represents the age range 7 to 14-years-old. This period in a human life is so precious, we experience so much in this time, namely puberty, sexual awareness, and awareness of other people in relation to ourselves. We also discover our own body parts, and our parents often times tell us certain areas are "private", which may then be associated with being "bad", whether directly or indirectly. Many emotional issues can crop up here, because this is the time when you learn from others, we develop a cognitive understanding of relationships, this is where we also develop self confidence, imagination, and self worth.
Last month I began my focus with the Sacral Chakra. I must admit I spent a great deal of time enjoying the more fun aspects of this energy center, and not facing the more unpleasant ones. What's not to love about this chakra? The Sacral Chakra is associated with our creativity, sex, and relationships in our universe. I did some painting, played with wild nail polish colors, and really was overcome with a sense of personal freedom. I remembered that exciting part of adolescence, when I would just wake up and go to a museum, or discover some great musical artist, or just get lost in a great book. Everyday felt like summer.
The Sacral Chakra is is located just below the navel, and on a physical level governs sexual organs in both males and females. This chakra's color is representation is a warm orange. This chakra represents the age range 7 to 14-years-old. This period in a human life is so precious, we experience so much in this time, namely puberty, sexual awareness, and awareness of other people in relation to ourselves. We also discover our own body parts, and our parents often times tell us certain areas are "private", which may then be associated with being "bad", whether directly or indirectly. Many emotional issues can crop up here, because this is the time when you learn from others, we develop a cognitive understanding of relationships, this is where we also develop self confidence, imagination, and self worth.
In my younger years, I was a super-sensitive dreamer, living in a happy fantasy world of books, music, and art, around parents who worked very hard to take care of us kids, fitting in fun when they could. I wanted to be an artist, fashion designer, writer, historian, etc, that was all I did in my spare time, nothing else. I had ZERO aspiration to do anything remotely "normal", it just wasn't in me, it felt like death, I was pure right brain, and in search of beauty at every turn. I shared these creative aspirations with my parents, and they pretty much said, 'yeah, sure...' I wore flowers in hair, dyed pink, and hung Christmas light year round...They thought I was on drugs, I can't blame them, I experimented, but can't say I took to it, thankfully it was just weird to me. I recall sharing some of my poetry with them, which I felt was sacred, not because I thought I was so talented, but because I felt it from the deepest part of me...their response was, "you are too young to write about these things." I was beyond crushed, I was devastated; to me, they insulted my feelings, not my talent, my feelings. I shut down and never ever shared my poems with them or anyone else really. I felt bad, wrong, and like my feelings and creative ideas didn't matter. I felt I needed to hide my creative expressions from the world. This later manifested in romantic relationships, I felt very guarded, like they must be kept private. I was not allowed to date or even speak to boys on the phone....I never understood how that could hurt me. I saw them at school, I sat next to them, many were my friends...but I was made to believe the boys were out to get me.
Another deep rooted issue was that I was a girl, born to a very, very young mother. She understandably taught me about sex from a very young age. I was a MISTAKE to put it rather bluntly, not planned at all, and over the years I have made my peace with this. I was the aftermath of my mom's first sexual experience as a young teenager. She was clueless as to what she was doing, and spent the majority of her pregnancy hiding it from everyone. Growing up, she told me these stories, not to hurt me, but to be teach me to not have sex until I was 'grown'. I was told to not dress provocatively in any way, to not be too sexy, any clothing remotely fitted was a challenge for me because I developed earlier than other kids, but at heart was still a child. Most mothers teach this to their daughters, it was taught to them, and their grandmothers, it goes all the way back to colonial times. The idea that sex was a taboo, something to be very afraid of, or that it was somehow scary, and something bad would inevitably follow if you had any, was drilled into me since I could remember. I did not associate sex with being a loving, pleasurable act between two people.
I recall turning 13-years-old, walking down the street, and having men whistle, cat-call,and blow their horns at me. I was so upset, and wondered 'What did I do to make them behave this way?' This went on for years unfortunately. It felt like a daily battle, and my shell just got thicker, and thicker, and my temperament became very aggressive, my femininity began to feel like a shameful burden.
In an unconscious sort of way, I believed that men were out to get me, that I should expect to be harmed by them, and lied to. Be on guard and be on alert; in early adulthood (Solar Plexus) I added a 'get them first' to that list of defenses, along with closing off my heart and emotions to them. That is what I believed. Later in life I felt the need to hide my romantic relationships from people, and I experienced hurt, lies, and deceit from the men I would date. That is what I was attracting, that is what I was pulling in, I got what I was resonating with.
I recall turning 13-years-old, walking down the street, and having men whistle, cat-call,and blow their horns at me. I was so upset, and wondered 'What did I do to make them behave this way?' This went on for years unfortunately. It felt like a daily battle, and my shell just got thicker, and thicker, and my temperament became very aggressive, my femininity began to feel like a shameful burden.
In an unconscious sort of way, I believed that men were out to get me, that I should expect to be harmed by them, and lied to. Be on guard and be on alert; in early adulthood (Solar Plexus) I added a 'get them first' to that list of defenses, along with closing off my heart and emotions to them. That is what I believed. Later in life I felt the need to hide my romantic relationships from people, and I experienced hurt, lies, and deceit from the men I would date. That is what I was attracting, that is what I was pulling in, I got what I was resonating with.
Chakras. I am not saddened by this; this is a cause for celebration, I have found a big, deep root for my disconnect from my Sacral Chakra! Woo-hoo! This means that I can begin to heal, and further develop my Sacral Chakra energy, I can bravely face these issues. I can and have been sending Reiki to my Sacral Chakra, actually talking to it, telling it it is beautiful and can feel freedom, and it can accept love, it is safe to feel like a woman. My relationships are no longer private, they are actually a hot topic, and I feel that the love I share with my boyfriend is an inspiration to other people around me.
Many people go through this, and worse, during these sensitive years. In my case I do not blame or resent my parents. I certainly had some issue with them in my later teen years, and we have thankfully repaired our relationship. This focus on my Sacral Chakra has been a wonderful addition to my journey, because I have been able to go back and focus healing energy on those traumas, not just acknowledge them.
Many people go through this, and worse, during these sensitive years. In my case I do not blame or resent my parents. I certainly had some issue with them in my later teen years, and we have thankfully repaired our relationship. This focus on my Sacral Chakra has been a wonderful addition to my journey, because I have been able to go back and focus healing energy on those traumas, not just acknowledge them.
I mentioned earlier that I had some fun with my Sacral Chakra focus. I began some water color paintings, and went wild with my web design ideas at work! It's great to incorporate Reiki and Spirit at work, we tend to need it there the most.
